December 12, 2004
studying
ive been studying my ass off. i have never had to study like this before in my life (i havent really had to STUDY before!)!! 1 final down, 3 to go...
i has a realization tonight: i re-realized exactly how EASY it is to lose your Self. i had a brief glimmer this evening of how much i have been absorbed in all this school shit, being (but actually 'feeling') nervous, catastophising, etc. being able to actually get some perspective on all this, even for just a moment, is good and refreshing.
its at times like this (when i noticehow much i HAVENT been tending to myself and the things that are important to me) that i notice how such simple realizations can make such profound differences in how your world and phenomenology appear to you!
sorry: i dont mean to get too heady... it is just nice to be in touch with myself again, even if just for a brief time...
Posted by crreynolds at December 12, 2004 01:58 AM